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The 90s TV Icon Who Brought Me Back To Life

Writer's picture: Helen MooresHelen Moores

Updated: Jan 17



 

The day I met one of my childhood heroes was also one of the saddest days of my life.


I was twenty-five, working as a carer, and silently battling a depression so deep it felt like I was dragging a lead weight around inside my chest.


The work itself was heavy too - long hours, emotional exhaustion, the quiet grief of witnessing vulnerability and death, day in and day out.


But I needed the job, and it felt like my duty to show up, even when I barely felt present in my own life.


 

There was one particular day that still clings to me like a strange and vivid dream.


I was scheduled to care for an elderly gentleman I had never met before. His regular carer was on leave, and I had been sent in as cover.


When I arrived, I noticed the house was quiet, almost oppressively so. The kind of quiet that makes your thoughts echo louder.


As I went through the motions of introducing myself and beginning his care routine, his son appeared from the kitchen.


And that's when everything shifted.


 

I knew his face instantly.


He was older now, of course, but there was no mistaking him.


He was one of the characters from a TV show I had watched religiously as a child - one of those shows that seeps into your bones when you're young and lonely, searching for comfort.


I was a sensitive child, often lost in my own head, and the shows I watched became more than entertainment - they were companions. They narrated my sense of wonder, sparked my imagination, and cocooned me from the harsher edges of life.


You see, when I was a child, television had been my lifeline. The colourful, chaotic world of '90s programming was my refuge when reality felt overwhelming.


 

And now, here was this man, a piece of my childhood in flesh and blood, standing in the same room as me.


I didn't say anything at first.


We just kept looking at each other.


I was too self-conscious, too aware of the dissonance between my worn-out adult self and the wide-eyed child still echoing inside me.


But he knew.


'You're looking at me wondering how you know me, aren't you?' he gently asked.


But before I could reply, he disappeared into another room and returned holding the puppet.


The puppet.


The one from the show. The one that felt like an old long lost friend.


The one that had made me laugh so hard as a girl I nearly cried.


 

For the first few seconds, I stood stunned, my adult self caught off guard.


Without warning, he launched into character, voice and all, and started playfully chasing me around the living room.


And then it happened - like a thread snapping.


Laughter bubbled up from somewhere so deep and long-forgotten that it almost hurt.


I wasn’t thinking about bills or burnout or the crushing ache in my chest of a broken heart.


I wasn’t thinking about anything at all.


I was just laughing, caught in this ridiculous, surreal moment where someone I had watched through a TV screen was now here, chasing me with a puppet.


For those few minutes, I felt eight years old again.


Light, unburdened...free.


 

The weight I'd been carrying so silently lifted, just for a moment, and I remembered - this is what joy feels like.


Pure, unselfconscious, uncalculated joy.


The kind you can’t manufacture or force.


The kind that bubbles up when you least expect it, like the sun breaking through clouds you didn’t even realise was still there.


After the moment passed and we both caught our breath, he smiled gently and lovingly placed the puppet on the sofa, lifeless once more.


 

Life resumed its usual rhythm.


I finished my care duties, making sure his father was comfortable, and left the house feeling lighter than I had in months.


That day didn’t cure my depression.


It didn’t fix the long, tangled mess of personal struggles I was navigating.


But it cracked something open.


It reminded me that there were still moments of light, even when everything felt overwhelmingly dark.


It reminded me of the part of me who used to laugh so easily - that little girl - was still in there, waiting to be seen.


 

In the days and years that followed, I have thought often about how strange and beautiful life can be.


How moments of healing can come from the most unexpected places - a childhood TV show, a puppet, a stranger who somehow knew how to speak the language of joy.


I also realised something deeper.


Caring for others, as hard as it often felt, was not just about physical tasks or professional detachment.


It was about presence.


About being open, even in my own pain, to the small, quiet miracles of human connection.


 

He could have easily kept his distance.


He could have let me do my job, seen the look of recognition on my face and simply acknowledged its presence without embracing it.


But instead, he chose to see me - not just as a carer, but as a person.


And in doing so, he gave me a gift I hadn’t known I needed.



 

Since that day, I’ve held onto the memory like a talisman.


A reminder that even in the depths of struggle, there can be moments of grace.


That the echoes of childhood joy are never entirely lost.


And that sometimes, healing arrives not as a grand revelation, but as a puppet chasing you around a living room, reminding you how to laugh again.


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